Do you know me ?

I was sitting at home just browsing the net doing nothing in particular and a thought came into my head, the thought was simple, it was Do you know me ?

Did you know the answer to that is simple, I don't think anyone really knows me, I have lots of friends, people I go out with, but none of them really know me.

I have always learnt to keep myself to myself, don't get me wrong, I'm not quiet, I enjoy having fun, but I always keep myself and my personal life private.  Why ? you may ask.  Well the reason why is complicated and defiantely not something I am going to go into on a blog. 

In everyone's life's things happen that direct us into a certain direction we have to go.  I don't like being directed so rather than follow a course that many people would have, I built a barrier around myself, the barrier is my friendliness, my loudness, the way I am considerate and the way I care.  But you know what, that's not really me, yes I am friendly, caring and considerate, but that's only the outside.

The real me is in my opinion lovely, but then again we all have a biased view about ourselves don't we ?

It would be nice one day, just to meet someone I feel so comfortable with that they can know the real me, I can't see that ever happening, but then again I'm an optimist so I don't rule anything out.

One day I would like to wake up and say I hate something or someone, but so far no one has ever got me to the stage of hate, because after all everything has its good points, even bad things do.  You may not see them, but the good is always there.

Someday's are strange days

I don't know what it is with today, its my day off and I have been completely bore out of my mind.

I wanted to go shopping, but its been raining, I did some washing and then I got completely annoyed about something someone had done.

Why the hell do people have to be fake ?  You think you know someone, you think you have made a good friend, and it turns out that its all a load of rubbish.

I went to a party down the road from me not so long ago, met some cool people, we talk, we have fun, we get on.

Went to a party with people from online, again met some cool people, again chatted, had fun etc, but you know the most annoying thing about it, despite me making the effort most of the people I thought was cool or nice, can't be bothered. 

I have worked out I am a bad judge of character.  Well actually that's not true, I am great judge of character, but after a few drinks it sort of goes out of the window.  I'm going to stick to first impressions, that way it does not bother me, if I come home from meeting people and they can't be bothered.

How about a nice video today, this is of Alex Pettyfer no particular reason for it, apart from he's a local boy, the song is good, and Stormbreaker was a good film.  So three reasons for this.

The song is 'Bad Boy' by

Cascada

Vodka is the Cure to Everything

Why is it that we feel the need to go out and get completely drunk on a weekend, it is such an English thing, you go to many countries and there is not the binge drinking.

You know what, I don't actually care, I enjoy spending weekends with my friends, and if I just happen to get drunk on the weekend, then thats all the better.

Also when you have had a few drinks everything seems better, so vodka really is the cure to everything.

I'm not condoning drinking and alcoholism, after all thats a personal thing, only if you choose to drink lots should you. But never blame circumstances for your drinking problems, drinking is a choice, you are not forced to do it.

It really annoys me when you see Alcoholics on TV programs complaining about their lives, and how their kids or family have drove them to drink, thats a load of rubbish. They picked up a can and opened it, it was not put in their hands by someone else.

Yes drinking can be addictive, but as with anything, if you get addicted then you go to your doctors or health center and seek help, not continue to do something which is something you say you don't want to do.

I suppose I should get out of bed and actually do something, although its Sunday so its a great day for being lazy, and I am not working tomorrow so can really chill today, even though I am sure I am supposed to be helping someone do something, but I cant remember if its today or tomorrow, oh well nevermind a quick phonecall will solve that issue up.